I've been asked tons of times since my return to Rome, how does it feel to be back? Of course this is a loaded question. I've kinda touched upon it in my earlier blog this month. Really its been amazing.
Being in Rome has made me feel at peace in its chaos. Rome is such a special place for me I cant not help but think of people who I'd love to share it with. Seeing Vance again has been easy and uncomplicated. And I'm grateful for his hospitality. I guess that just goes to show how much we've both moved on but also how good of a friendship we have. My hot salsa dancer and his Brazilian interests have helped too. And I must say, I think its awesome if you can stay friends with your exes and it says a lot about you too. Spending time with dear friends from choir and the university makes me miss not being near them anymore but respect the relationship and see how strong those ties are between us. Don't you love it when time has passed but when you get together with your friends it feels like no time has passed at all?
My past few weeks have stirred up so many emotions; joy, calmness, serenity, sadness, desire, yearning, loneliness, love, liberation, aggravation, freedom and giddiness. I'm somewhat surprised at the recipient of those feelings whether it be to the city, things I've seen or visited, people or even to myself. My mind has been going and going and dreams have been crazy from what I remember. Its like in meditation, you acknowledge it but then you let it go, focusing only on the present moment of calmness of the breath.
Overall, I'm in such a good place in my life even with all my uncertainty as to the next adventure/step. I look forward to the next week in Rome as well as the unknown future ahead, but I focus on the now and today of reconnecting with friends. I'm thankful for my friends here in Rome and in Italy who've made this trip an amazing one. Baci ed abbracci a voi!
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